Change and Icky Flu

Look at little Miss Sam I Am! She has changed so much already! This picture was taken in the hospital, and she's already changed so much! She def. has some light skin like her mama now, and those blue eyes.... EVEN BLUE-ER! Those chubby cheeks haven't changed! She's such a happy girl! Every morning when you go to get her out of her crib, she gives you the biggest smile and giggles! It makes every morning like Christmas Morning. Scott and I race to see who can get the first smile of the day! Yesterday I got the priv. of getting my hair done and little Miss Sam sure did put a number on the hair lady! Such a little doll! Now? She's taking a nap in her swing borrowed from Aunt Kelli and Clara. Scott? In bed - looking worse as ever with the stomach bug that Miss Sam and I just recovered from. I think Men are getting the sickness worse? Scott looks like death, and it's been a challenge getting him to keep hydrated. Hmmm. Another reason, I can NOT wait till Spring. Open doors, fresh air, pretty flowers, and NO FLU bugs! Sam and I can take short walks, go lay a blanket on the grass and bask (sp?) in the cool spring air. Ahhhh I got glimpse of it the other day and I have to say the Vit. D made a difference. Why can't it always be spring and fall.... just alternate... Winter and Hot Summer... I could do without.... For now? I am in my pretend world of daisies and cool but warm air..... There's no place like Sping... There's no place like Spring???? Didn't work!

Down

Sometimes your emotions get the best of you, and when you're emotions get the best of you, everyone handles it differently. Me? When I'm stressed, sad, or mad... I need comfort and communication. Scott? Stands quiet and likes to think to himself. It makes me sad when we get into bed and he turns the other way and says good night... That's it? I always think. I guess I knew that marriage isn't all butterflies and rainbows... But, I guess I kind of expected to be recognized a little more. I make the store runs, work 36 hour weeks, clean the house, and do the laundry... Yes, Scott pulls his weight around here too. But isn't there something inside of him that thinks his wife deserves a little more than the bare minimum? So, when I feel over welmed and I communicate it with him, why does he not give me any response. Doesn't it concern him that his wife is hurting in some way? I guess I am more of a feeler... If I see that he is stressed or upset I want to communicate and help him feel better. I guess Scott thinks that it's something that I need to work out on my own. I didn't get married to work things out on my own. How does this work? How do you meet in the middle? Sometimes I feel that Scott could have married anyone and been completely happy... He's so easy to get along with that any marriage would have been fine. Am I just a place holder? Now, I know this isn't true but sometimes this is how I feel, and aren't my feelings coming from somewhere? Shouldn't they make him a little concerned and want to help?