A Moment

Just yesterday, I called my mom and asked her if she ever felt like a bad Mom when we were little "tirants"... The reason I called and asked her that and sent a text to my sister asking the same question is... you love your children so much but some days - you feel like you just want to get to the end of the day. You just want to have no responsibility that day. With a child, you don't have a choice. BUT - at the end of the day when they are sleeping peacefully and look so sweet and innocent - you feel TERRIBLE! What is wrong with me? Why can't I just enjoy this little lamb? I think every Mother has had this moment (more than once). Sometimes I dream about being in a cabin up in the mountains ALL BY MYSELF, where I can let out a big scream! This morning I woke up feeling less cranky and was able to enjoy Sam. Scott took to me to see the movie, "The Help", and it was awesome! When we went to pick up Sam, she was jumping up and down with excitement and as soon as I picked her up - she waved by to Nana and Papa. It warmed my heart to know that I'm a good enough mom to have my little one do that! That Nana and Papa are hard to compete with :) It's nice to know that Sam loves her Mom and Dad and doesn't hold a grudge (yet) on days where we are tired and cranky! Tomorrow, we are going to have a picnic together - and enjoy a day off :)

Miserable Lunch Date

Today - we had to privilege of going out to lunch.... or not. Sam is at a VERY hard age. We go to sit down, and I am already expecting this to be nothing less than stressful. The nice lady asks, "Do you want a booster seat?" Sure! Even though I am very aware that the amount of time Sam will spend in this chair is minimal. Yup - I guessed it - Sam was saying "out, out, out, out" Fine... we let her out and let her jump around outside of out booth. I'm to the point where, whatever - as long as she is not screaming... I'm ok with this. Scott was cranky for the get go - and lost his temper (which normally it's me whom does so..). Scott's yelling at Sam, than I stop him and calmly explain that it isn't helping... OH BROTHER! Did I make a HUGE mistake in doing so. I guess Scott wasn't in the mood to be corrected :). Later on down misery lunch lane.... Scott apologizes to Sam.... and that's it... Hmmmm, men are interesting people aren't they??? I'm sitting there like, "HELLO!!!!! Your wife is sitting here awaiting your apology for acting like a goon!" Lesson learned for the day??? DO NOT GO OUT IN PUBLIC - AT ALL with a 22 month old.... Not worth the fighting with her, not worth the fighting with your spouse, and not worth the 20 bucks you are spending on lunch. Our eating out days are coming to an end soon anyway cause Scott will be returning to School, and we will be poor folk... maybe it's the Lord telling us we need to wait till Sam is old enough to behave. The icing on the cake you ask??? Well, Scott and I got in the car before coming to lunch and guess what?!?! Yup - my car wasn't starting ( probably why Scott wasn't thrilled at lunch)... Luckily, I have a husband who is very efficient with getting things taken care of and is fixing my car as we speak! Another good thing about Scott is he is quick to apologized when asked to do so, and quick to snap back into a decent mood. He has every right to be cranky sometimes... Trust me my cranky times are much more common than his. So - for the rest of the day, we will stay inside while Crankpot Sam naps and tromps around our home. We were invited to a birthday party - but I think I'm going to wave my white flag and save everyone at the party some grief - and keep my monster home for the evening! Plus - my car probably won't be drivable by then! Thanks for Listening!

Up, Down, Spin Around

Why must we go through so many ups and downs? One day, you feel happy and energetic... the next you're irritable and tired. For me, it feels like I go from one extreme to the next... REALLY happy or REALLY down. There aren't a lot of middle of the road moments for me. Some mornings I wake up, and just feel like crying and I have NO IDEA why?!? Now, I'm not saying this so you ask, "Oh, poor Jenny, what's wrong?" No, I'm saying this because I know other people go through this same emotional roller coaster as well.

Today, I was at a Implant class. For whatever reason, I was really excited. My hands were shaking and I couldn't keep them still. My heart was racing, and I felt that I needed to take a good deep breath. Ever since Sam was born, I've started to have random panic attacks, so I think this is what it was related to. I think the new responsibility of a child hits some people like a truck and others slide right into it. I've been able to identify when one is approaching and to help keep it under control.

My main question is, Why does this happen? Why are our nervous systems such touchy things? Why are some people more sensitive than others to this. I get anxious when things aren't routine or thought out well. If I leave the house with Sam and she is not wearing any shoes and I have to put them on before going into the Grocery store - it freaks me out. I have a plan and I don't want anything to interrupt it. My brain can only handle so much - I'm wired that way. If I ever have to make a stop to do something that is inconvenient for me on the way to do something else... I get anxious.

If you go to a doctor (which I have) they tell you that you need to be on medications... Medications that make you shake more or make your head feel like there are small fireworks going off every couple of minutes. Medications that if you stop cold turkey - your body starts to go into shock?? So, what's the solution? Do we grow out of it? Do you learn to cope, and it becomes the norm for you? Being the routine person that I am - I want someone to say, "Jenny, here's what you need to do, and here's how you need to do it, and your problems will be solved. " Sadly - that is not how the world works.

My best idea is to keep a journal of when I'm happy - What did I do that day? What did I eat that day? How much caffeine did I have today? WHAT TIME OF THE MONTH IS IT? Some patients of mine come in, and I can't help but wonder... How do you work a normal job? How one earth to you make it through life? So socially handicap and hard to communicate with. I feel sorry for them but at the same time, I envy them for being oblivious to the fact that people are uncomfortable with the social behavior. I wish I didn't think five times over about what I'm about to do, what I'm doing, and what I did. I can't tell you how many times I've been driving home and been thinking about something I've said over and over again and repeating it out loud to see if it's offensive or could get me in trouble some way, some how.

Why can't there be direct answers to everything??

Sweet Getaway in FlipFlops

Oh, how round I look in this picture... But, Sam looks cute so I guess it will make the blog! This was from Fourth of July weekend when I had asked Scott to pack my running shoes... Am I wearing running shoes in this picture? No :) Scott forgot and grabbed Sam an extra Water Cup instead. On the way down from the hike, Scott said he was fearing for his life at some points - as I slipped and skidded down the rocks in my Old Navy Flip Flops! It will be a fun story to tell, and I had a good laugh about it on the way home. I've learned that you never ask your husband to pack something very important :0) That would be my job!

This Summer has been enjoyable - yet stressful. Scott's job isn't ideal. His hours are cruddy and we don't see much of him when a co-worker takes two weeks vacation. Sam and I try to stay busy but there are only so many hours I can stand sitting at the Tinkerbelle table looking like Billy Madison did when he is drawing the blue duck in the First Grade, and coloring with Crayons. Sam gets creative and moves on to the couch and walls while I'm not looking... So I guess that spices my days up a bit! I have been working a lot. I love my new job, but I've discovered that no matter how much I love my job... I still really want to be a stay at home mom who has the option of working part time but doesn't have to. Scott is considering going back to school in the Spring, so maybe there is a light at the end of the working mom tunnel?? Maybe a couple more years of work and than I can hang up my dental assistant lab jacket?? We will see. Right now, that feels really far away.

Getting sleepy eyed, and have work tomorrow!

The Wonderful Life of a Hormonal Woman

If you are a woman, you notice weird ups and down that come during at certain times of the month. Let's take the beginning of the cycle. You're cranky, tired, achy, and bloated. The week after you are so exhausted and cranky. The third week you are feeling great, recovered, and more energy. Than, the week before you are back to cranky and tired... So, you're telling me we have ONE week out of the month to feel good?? What is all this about? Maybe, men would understand more if they went through it for a couple of months. After, running the 5k... I wanted to sleep all day today. I just could not get enough sleep.... I wake up from a nap and want to go right back to sleep. Fall asleep again, than when Sam starts to wake up, I had to really force myself to open my eyes. I always get bummed when I don't fully have the energy to give to Sam. Makes going back to work that week a little bit more difficult. Tomorrow, Sam and I will venture off to the Parker Pool with a friend from my old job. Hopefully, I have a bit more energy. I am not a person who handles a lot of events well. When I have a jam packed month where my weekends are booked up, I get stressed and angry. I'm more of a spur of the moment type person. Wake up... lets go to the mall today or I think I'll call my mom or sister to hang out.... Not much of a planner in that way. Tonight, we had Scott's Brother, his wife, and my nephew Ryan over for Taco Salad and Brats. It was fun. Sam ran around with Ryan and laughed a lot. She also ate a couple Chocolate Covered Strawberries.. Yum ;) I do like to entertain from time to time. But, the social aspect does make me tired. Today, Sam gave me a scary gift. You see, she usually likes to take the lady bugs out of her water table and give them to me.... Well, today I hear, "Here ya go Mama..." I look over and she has a HUGE bumble bee perched on her finger! I scream and knock the bee of her hand. Sam looks at me confused and starts to cry... Not because the bee stung her (because he didn't) but because she thought I was yelling at her... Oh, the world of a innocent mind. Well, my eyes are closing slowly... off to bed

Where's the Off Button??

Why am I up, you ask? Well, yesterday I ran a 5k for underwareness... Now, you ask... Did you train for this? No.... out of pure arrogance, I wanted to beat or finish at the same time as my boss because she runs on a normal basis. I think she slowed down with me to be nice, and knew it would be fun for me to finish with her. So, yes I ran it... My sister asked if my heart stopped at some point... My guess would be yes! The first mile was a breeze... The second mile lasted forever, and the last mile.2 lasted a little shorted because I think I was starting to slip. But, I can proudly say I did not join the lady laying on the ground whom I asked if she was alive.... So, yes I finished a 5k in 37 minutes. When I looked up what a good time for a 5k was... it was much lower than that number! I have to say it inspired me and I will be running another 5k in September... I will train a little bit more before hand and try to beat my time of 37 minutes by 2 minutes. Have you seen those cool toe shoes? Well, the run is based off of those, so I hope I can convince Scott to let me make that purchase. He's hesitant at the time because I just purchased some North Face Flip Flops that I had to have. I'll work on him. OH! I'm sorry I forgot where I was going with my first couple of sentences. Anyways, I am up because I slept all day to try and recover from my delirious run. I lay in bed trying to fall asleep but random thoughts keep running through my hampster brain. Tonight we drove Sam to a park so she could get some energy out. There were two boys there, they weren't speaking to each other... just wondering around.. I asked one of them, "Do you want us to leave, are you waiting for us to leave??" He replied.. No... I asked the normal stranger questions, age? school? Than why are you here? Anyway it eventually came down to these two boys were from a group home near by and wanted to get out of the house, I guess... So sad. Two boys not speaking to each other just coming to a near by park to sit. The middle school boy followed the highschool boy around. I wonder what happened, and what these boys can do. Of course, after they left, I sat there and wanted to cry because I felt so bad for them. If only they had someone to talk to... Scott shakes his head at my a lot because I talk to strangers and I probably make them uncomfortable.. But, who is to say that that boy didn't need someone to talk to. I'm not stupid, I know better than to do so when My husband isn't around. But, I'll ask someone who looks lonely how their day is going or create conversation if it will make them feel better. Gotta Run

It's Been A Long Time....

I love how Sam is resting her head on her hand. She is watching Kung Fu Panda... One of her top 2 favorite movies. I like the movie because it reminds me of Brad. I don't know why but Jack Black Humor always reminded me of Brad. Sam loves it because there is a lot of "Hiii YA!" She thinks Poe is very funny and entertaining. Sorry it's been so long. We had a week of the Flu, and I flew off to Houston, Texas to help open a Surgery Center for Medicaid patients. I've been very tired.
This is when Sam had the flu. She was the first to get it. It was so sad to wake up to a pukey crib. Poor thing was shaking and sleepy eyed. One night she cried for 2 hours. Thank Goodness Jesus was looking out for her and she fell fast asleep after that. All I could keep asking was.... Lord, give me strength to not start crying. Lord, give her peace.... Scott was having a very hard time and wanted to take Sam to the hospital... Such a silly dad. The Lord did give me strength and helped keep Scott calm. She just was pukey and tired. She recovered well!


In case you were wondering - Sam is eating a banana. It has turned into morning tradition. Milk and a banana that she can walk around with... she usually eats the whole thing. After Sam had recovered, I started to feel the effects of the flu in Houston. Riding in a bumpy airplane with your boss while you have the runs is not my cup of tea. He was nice enough to offer to buy my Imodium... Lol - that might go on my top ten most embarrassing moments list. I got home, and went straight to bed. I lost 9 lbs and I guess that is not good? My doctor told me to go to the ER to get an IV bag. I must admit, I felt rather silly sitting in the ER with an IV bag hooked to my arm and I only had the flu. My brother in law was very nice and brought me to the ER. I guess - no matter how irritated I get with the in-laws... they are all very nice people. Chad even called me two days later to see how I was feeling. I guess I hit the jack pot for in laws, huh? Why didn't Scott bring me? HE GOT A JOB! He had his first week this week, and is loving it. He will be working four days a week and hopefully have three days off with Sam and I! I guess, everything happens for a reason.

Yes, yes we purchased a swing set. Have we given this a second thought? Yes - see, the problem with the swing set is...well, she NEVER wants to stop. When I take the straps off and bring the harness down... She yells NO!! and tries to use her feet to kick it back up into position. She could seriously swing for hours. Do you see her snazzy new shoes? They are Garanimals! I have to admit the Velcro makes me giggle a little bit. She clomps around like a old man.

Sam and I met Kristen and the baby she nannies at the park. Sam was very excited to have a new friend. So excited that she decided to feed her new friend. Sam would take a bite out of every french fry and than hand it off to Quincy. Such a nice friend... for now. Tomorrow is Easter, and I am sad because I was really excited about Sam's Basket about a month ago. I got sick when we went shopping for Easter - so I just grabbed what I could and ran out the door. Poor Sam - she is getting a crappy basket this year. Hopefully I make up for it next year. I am feeling much better now. I had to work today - so I am just very tired. I should go get some sleep for all the big festivities tomorrow. Happy Easter if I fail at blogging for a couple of weeks again!
XoXo
JRC

A Blissful Weekend

Sam was cold so she decided it might be nice to share her daddy's shirt while she enjoyed a little Monsters Inc. This week has been blissful. We started on Thursday with Enchiladas and visiting my parents for dinner. It's always nice to see Granny, Gramps, and Uncle Jo. Sam putted around the backyard with Lina and enjoyed the beautiful, sunny evening. On Friday - we made our wal mart stop... saving money always makes me happy! We got a pretty red quilt - that I will photograph sometime later - am too lazy to go do it now. Sam was such a good little bug at Wal-mart! So good - that we bought her a set of plastic golf clubs so she can practice her swing ;). Poor beans got hit in the eye with a toy golf ball - she was not pleased with me... Scott let her sleep on the bed, so I don't think she has any memory of the tragic accident anymore. Yesterday - we went to the nursery and looked at all the pretty flowers and trees. We strolled along southlands and enjoyed the sun. We stopped by home depot and found trees for much cheaper than at the nursery. We picked out the White Pine... I liked them the most because their needles were so soft and not so pokey! Scott and I spend Sam's nap time digging big holes. I got sunburned and spent the night itching. Today- Scott's brother came over and helped Scott plant the trees just in time for the rain and snow. Did you hear the wind last night?? It woke me up last night - and I was wondering if I needed to wake Sam and Scott up and go down to the basement for cover. I was very tired today, and needed a nap.
Isn't Sam cute? She likes to enjoy her breakfast while looking out the back window at the traffic. We trimmed her bangs this weekend - so she doesn't look so hobo-ish. I guess I'm ready to go back to work. I have a lot to do so hopefully it goes by quickly.
Bye Bye

Bye Bye Weekend

A relaxing weekend is coming to an end... It depends on the week if I am looking forward to work. This week, I would rather not go in. No specific reason... just want another four days off. Scott should be hearing from Dish very soon.... I really hope he gets this job. It'll be nice to have some days off alone with Sam. Not that I don't love having him home... I just miss the girl time. I am very spoiled right now though. Scott does a lot of work around the house which makes me job around here so much easier. This weekend was relatively nice. Although, there are a lot of fires in CO... we got to enjoy running around the backyard fire free. Sam likes to run down by the fence and to a pile of rocks... the two place I don't want her to be.

Sam has started to count! Usually - I will count to three when I am about the do something like push her on her scooter or throw a blanket over her head. So, when I say one.... Sam says, "Doooo!" (two).... " Shreeeeeeeee" (three). It is very cute, but Scott was trying to use the counting as a discipline method when Sam was playing with the trash can. Scott gives Sam and stern look and tells Sam No.... One.... and Sam smiles and looks up and says, "DOOOOO!" Scott had to walk away to laugh... Boy, are we in trouble with this crazy kid.


What you are looking at is a Fried Jalapeno! They turned out alright, I guess. Next time I will used pickled jalapenos. Can you tell that a lot of my nights have been spent on the couch watching Diners, Drive Ins, and Dives? I get some fun ideas from that show BUT it's never fun to make an unpleasant meal. Although - I have been craving my Chocolate Chip Cookies lately... Yummmm. While making these spicy little poppers - I forgot to turn the fan on again, and smoked up the whole house. Scott was a little irritated... probably because he reminded me to turn it on before I started chipping the jalapeno vines off.

Lately I've been watching the TV show called The Nanny. No body understands why I like it so much, but it's one of those shows that you can laugh at I guess. Scott finds it funny because his mother watches it... I guess I am an old lady. Okay - off to catch some sleep for a long week ahead of me.
Xoxo
JRC

Giddie Up

Have you ever checked out the Campbell's Soups Recipe Website?? If not - I highly recommend it. It will provide many delicious meals for you and your family. What you are seeing up top is French Onion Pork Burgers. I substituted the pork for beef because it's what we had on hand. I have to say the beef probably would have tasted better. All I did was chop up some white onion and mix it in with the shredded pork, made them in to some plump patties, cook them in a frying pan til' they are almost done, pour the french onion soup into the pan, place a lid on it, and wait until they are completely cooked. They were pretty satisfying I must say! The other day I was telling my boss how delicious my Enchiladas were and he asked if I was really hungry when I ate them?? He said that when you are really hungry things taste a lot better... Thanks, I guess?? Dork.

Look at Sam's cute pony. Although... it doesn't stay in for very long. The rubber band is no match for Sam's sticky little fingers. She was fresh out of the bath - and too tired to fight me. I got my picture... I guess that's all that matters. Today I went over to see my co-worker/friend Traci. Poor thing - looked pretty beat up. I hope she feels better tomorrow. Her Mama is with her, and I'm sure that really helps. It's probably one of those moments where you want to curl up on the floor and cry for your mommy.
Look at her go! She can now get on and off all by herself. Look at Lina waiting for her turn so patiently. Scott had a pretty good interview with Dish the other day. Now - we wait for the final call. Pray, pray, pray he gets this job. It'll be nice to have that second income back!
XoXo
JRC

A Joyful Breakfast & a Distructive Child

This morning I woke up with quite a bit of energy. I let Scott sleep in, and took Sam downstairs... changed her diaper and gave her a delicious sippy cup full of warm milk. As she watched her morning dose of Mickey Mouse Club House, I decided to make breakfast. I made Sam a small (one egg) omelet, and I think she may have gotten one bite out of it. I started to boil two eggs for myself, and made Scott a sausage and cheese omelet. I toasted some bread and cooked up a piece of turkey bacon for myself. I also made some Orange Juice from the can. It was a pretty fulfilling breakfast. Scott was pretty pleased to come downstairs to a hot breakfast.

Oh, how I love my Thursdays... Such a relief to come home on Wednesday nights and think, "I get to stay home tomorrow and relax!" Work has been stressful as always... So much drama always going around. I'm glad I get a whole four days off from it. I will not answer my phone for anyone at work. Although, Traci is in surgery as we speak getting her Thyroid and some Lymph Nodes out. I will call her husband to make sure she did well. I know that if I had surgery though - I would want to rest a lot and be with my family.
Sam has been playing with her Learning Cookie Jar that her Grannie Maston bought for her when she was about 6 months old. She loves to throw the blocks in it and hear the Cookie Jar sing. Yesterday, Sam decided to throw one of out dining room chairs down the stairs, and now it is one big butt away from crumbling to pieces. Scott and I have to go to Furniture Row today and look at chairs due to only having two anyways.

Scott has an interview tomorrow with some more Dish people - hopefully he gets the hire soon, so we can start moving along with our plans to make the house look a little nicer. All the Dish people seem to really want him, just need him to go through the looong process of getting hired.

Well - off I go to relax and to furniture shopping due to my violent child.
XoXo
JRC

A Peasant Meal

I never really liked the thought of cabbage... Not because I had ever tasted it - but just the word sounds so icky... Cabbage? Well, one day a girl from work had it cooked and bathed it black pepper, and it was good! So - while we were doing our wal-mart grocery run - I picked up a head of "red" (it looks purple to me) cabbage. While I was searching the internet for a good way to cook cabbage - it mentioned somewhere that it is considered a "peasant food". The internet commends either boiling the veggie or frying it in some oil. I decided to use my oven though. I cut up some cabbage, sliced up some white onion, chopped up a medium sized carrot, and for giggles - put a couple pieces of broccoli in there too. I drizzled the veggies with some canola oil and sprinkled them with some black pepper. The oven was preheated to 375 degrees and the veggies were cooked for 20 minutes with the occasional stir. It was very delicious for a vegetable lover. Scott even was picking at it. Not bad for a healthy snack of light lunch?? When I think of Cabbage - I think of the New Charlie and The Chocolate Factory... Charlie's mama always was making Cabbage Soup.... Hmmm, I wonder how one would make cabbage soup?
Sam and Scott were watching some Tinkerbell. I love all the new movies. I really enjoy Fairy Mary. She's a sweet ol' chubby lady that says funny things like, "Teetering Teapots!" Scott seems to be getting a little tired of all the Mickey Mouse Characters. The other day he commented on how much Minnie and Daisy bothered him. Honestly - I like all the shows now.. They are always happy and have so little drama. Scott's more of a real action type of fellow. Today I was laying down upstairs, and little Sam came truckin' up the stairs, next thing I knew Sam was heading my way with her Lambie, Baby, and Blankie... I thought she might be coming to join me, but she handed them to me and made the sleeping sounds to me. I smiled and than she went back into her room, and came back with all her blankies - handed them to me.... One more trip was made and she was tugging her pink boppy behind her. Such a sweet little lamb trying to make her mama comfortable, I guess?

--Well off I go to Grannie and Grampie's house. Sam looks forward to seeing her grandparents... she is very lucky to have two full sets full of hugs and kisses.
XOXO
JRC

Cookies, Broken Dishwasher, and Happy Taxes?

About three days ago - our dishwasher started to give off a funny yet unpleasant scent. The verdict you ask??? No - not a burnt Sam spoon or a burnt Sam cup.... some gizmo or other burnt up inside the old machine. So - Scott and I went off to Sears and bought a new dishwasher. The Sales Guy was a little too excited for my taste. I don't think he realized that usually when people are coming to get a new appliance, it's because they're old was broke. Rarely is it a happy day to get a new ExPeNsIvE kitchen thing. Anyways - I kept looking at this elderly gentleman's wedding ring - and thinking, "How does this woman not smother this man in his sleep???" Thank goodness Scott was there - I was able to dilly-dally into the stoves and refrigerator section to get a break from Mr. Excitable. We walked out 850 dollars later with a delivery date of Tuesday... Handwashing for the next couple of days... BOO!

So - after the depressing moment of spending a lot of money - we had the pleasure of going to get our taxes done by Scott's very nice Aunt Pam. We were assuming with all the talk around that we were going to owe money... We "slunk" into H&R Block, and discovered a magical, magical thing..... 3,500.00 big smack-a-roos back! I think Scott and I were skipping with joy to the car. Well - having to buy a new dishwasher turned into now such a bad thing! A side note - I am not saying Scott's aunt is very nice because she got us money back - I liked her before ;)

Scott has had three interviews with dish network - and it sounds pretty promising to us. So, we are crossing our fingers for this job. It's more money a year (5,000 more) and 3 day weekends!! I think it'll be good for Scott to get this job - that is out of retail. A nice profession to slip into. Although- they are open year round - which stinks, but I guess sooner or later - EVERYONE will be open on holidays. Bummer.

I made some delicious Pork Enchiladas last night for ourselves and the Park Pep Squad (Mii did not eat any - rude!). Than tonight - I decided that I would take a big step and do my first "from scratch" baking. The end result is up top - They are pretty darn good - not as good as grannies but they work for us at the moment! Yum yum with milk! Okay - off I go..
Xoxo
JRC

Snot Nose

Poor Miss Sam has a snot nose - and being the fart that she is... she is not a fan of the whole wiping your nose gig. It seems that whatever her cuzzies have - she gets OR whatever Sam has - her Cuzzies get. The joy of having children play with other children. Today - Kelli, Bird, Bug, Sam, Millie, and I went on a walk to the park. Though a slight bit windy - it was warm! I was pushing Bug and Bird while Kelli carried Mi in "her pouch" (as Sophie called it), and pushed Sam. Clara sang, " Going Park, Going Park..." while we got ready. Sam got to swing peacefully while Clara and Sophie took turns on the other swing. Miii slept the whole time. A little Vit. D was probably good for all those snot noses... although a little boy was at the park with his grans and she mentioned he threw up last night.... "Greaaaat" I thought - now I know the next illness that will spread among us. Spring could not come any quicker. I am ready for tank tops again - I am ready for Sam to splash around in the pool, and to mooch some free zoo passes off of Auntie Kelli. No more of this snow business. Maybe I can have the Campbells and Mastons up and move to Arizona where Winter does not exist. Scott is working on the broken dish washer at the moment - apparently some gizmo is leaking and now the house smells like burnt rubber and copper - great.... Scotts job interview went well- we have high hopes! Must go!
Xoxo
JRC

Mentally Done

I am so tired! Work has been very exhausting. From doing the ordering for the whole practice - and just trying to stay sain- - I am just mentally done! Have you ever gotten the feeling where you just want to crawl in a hole and hit the rewind button? My brain is so stacked with responsibility - that I get overwelmed. There are 20 women in this practice, and a couple of them are just waiting for me to fail. Every night I go home and say, " Okay, tomorrow will be a better day and I will just keep my mouth shut - not say a word!" But, I do and htan I go home that very same night feeling that very same way! Ughhhhhhhhhhhh. Did I tell you how excited I am to not hear my neighbor SLAM his door shut every hour? Sometimes I imagine myself going out there and saying, "I HAVE A BABY THAT IS TRYING TO SLEEP, MUST YOU SLAM YOUR DOOR LIKE HARRY AND THE HENDERSONS????" Than I think twice and remember I am 5 foot 2 inches tall - a little on the chubby side... I am not as threatening as I seem..... Dang! On a positive note... our apprasil came in at 2,000 dollars over what we purchased it for - so we are home free there! Not the underwriter goes to town.... Lord, please give us a nice underwriter! Tomorrow- is a new day and I will go in there shut my mouth and just putz along! I think I can, I think I can! I'll let ya know!

Nothing Better To Do But Blog

In the midst of panic mode packing to get the condo ready for rent - we packed my books, bibles, studies, and my ereader.... So this leaves me with nothing else to do but blog! I have nothing to write in either... stupid of me. Look at sweet Samantha riding in her Jeep the wrong way. I love how her little blonde hair is sprouting through!
If everything goes smoothly - this is where Scott, Samantha and I will cozy on in and spend many years together. We are now in the terrible process of paper work and signing your life away. The apprasial (I know I did not spell that right Ma) has been ordered, the property management company has been contacted... Now we must sit and wait. I am not a very patient person - so this will be a long month. But, this week Scott has a well deserved vacation from work,Friday is SMC's 32nd birthday, Saturday School starts (hopefully), the next weekend is the sweet baby shower for Millie and Kelli, and than my 22nd birthday! Hopefully I will be moving into a house shortly after or even on my Birthday!
Sam decided to help with the move to storage by taking out all, and I mean ALL of the DVD's. So helpful... Tonight Sam and I enjoyed so Spasssghetti at Aunt Kelli, Uncle Bryan, and Cousin Sophie and Clara's house. Sam decided to lean forward in her chair and end up on the floor... oh so many spills and falls to come. I guess that's the joy of parenting!
I must admit I will miss our sweet (easy to clean) condo. I will not miss those stairs though! I have taken a couple of spills that have left me bruised! I love our Condo the most in the fall - so at least I will get one last breath of that fresh, crisp, golf course air one last time.
I will miss Sam's first bedroom. I asked Scott to paint it this pretty green while I was in Washington State with my Ma... and he did it! I got home, ran to the room and was so thrilled with the result - and could not wait to put fairies, silly pictures, and build my little ones crib. Now, we must paint over with white paint, take down the pictures, and it'll probably turn into an office or maybe another child's bedroom? Is it wierd that I have an attatchment to this place?
This is the place where we can eat our meals and be a family. I requested no TV during dinner because the TV will be so easily watchable - Scott agreed and has already put my request into effect. Hopefully for Miss Sam's 1st Birthday - we can have the Mastons/Parks/Campbells over for Ice cream and cake. Sam will be happy to see all her family in one spot!
Have you met little Millie Rose yet? She looks just like Clara Belle did when she was a wee one! Millie is going to have my middle name. It is a family name, I must admit I was very thrilled when that decision was made. Mille will be arriving right around Sam's first Birthday! Sam and I will head over to the Park Pep Squad house to help with little one and maybe even take the girls home with me for a fairy princess sleep over if their mommy lets me. I have to admit, I sit in bed at night and think about all the fun things we shall do while their mommy and daddy soak up Little MRP. Popcorn, Tinkerbelle, Ice Cream, and lots of running and jumping!


You must turn your labtop 180 degrees to view this picture due to my laziness! Well, I'm off to bed - Sam wakes up at 7 a.m. and is rarin' to go! Good Night... Maybe this blog thing will continue a couple more nights.
XOXO

I Vow....

I vow to no longer google symptoms I am having. I vow to keep a consistent bible study. I vow to try and control my anxiety.

And I'm Back.... at least for today

- Yes, I am a royal blog slacker. I guess life has gotten to be very busy lately. I think I also got a tad bit frustrated because my postings became shorter and shorter with less and less to entertain with. Life has been a crazy fun house... I work Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesdays - 6:30 - 6:00. Scott work Thursday - Monday 9 - 7 most days. So that leaves..... small amounts of time together. Which leads me with more alone time which means more time to think. Don't get me wrong... thinking time is good, but when you're over thinking every single detail... it gets a little exhausting for this hypochondriac... By the end of my work day... I'm beat and ready for my bed. Than when I wake it's time to worry about liver failure (I know it's so stupid!), MS, basically you name it... I've got it. Ugh it's so exhausting... when will it end right? I hope poor Sam does not inherit my hypo ways....

Artichoke Dip

Watching Julie and Julia has inspired me... I am going to step outside my box, and start making a bigger variety of foods. This weeks exciting new trial... Artichoke dip.... I'll keep you updated....

Change and Icky Flu

Look at little Miss Sam I Am! She has changed so much already! This picture was taken in the hospital, and she's already changed so much! She def. has some light skin like her mama now, and those blue eyes.... EVEN BLUE-ER! Those chubby cheeks haven't changed! She's such a happy girl! Every morning when you go to get her out of her crib, she gives you the biggest smile and giggles! It makes every morning like Christmas Morning. Scott and I race to see who can get the first smile of the day! Yesterday I got the priv. of getting my hair done and little Miss Sam sure did put a number on the hair lady! Such a little doll! Now? She's taking a nap in her swing borrowed from Aunt Kelli and Clara. Scott? In bed - looking worse as ever with the stomach bug that Miss Sam and I just recovered from. I think Men are getting the sickness worse? Scott looks like death, and it's been a challenge getting him to keep hydrated. Hmmm. Another reason, I can NOT wait till Spring. Open doors, fresh air, pretty flowers, and NO FLU bugs! Sam and I can take short walks, go lay a blanket on the grass and bask (sp?) in the cool spring air. Ahhhh I got glimpse of it the other day and I have to say the Vit. D made a difference. Why can't it always be spring and fall.... just alternate... Winter and Hot Summer... I could do without.... For now? I am in my pretend world of daisies and cool but warm air..... There's no place like Sping... There's no place like Spring???? Didn't work!